Unethical

My boss found out that I had intended to take someone with me to my new job... someone whom I had worked with before in my previous posting. He said it was unethical of me. 

Wow!

Unethical... indeed... the late Michael Jackson would sing... Man In The Mirror... and I concur.

You call me unethical... didn't you do the same thing? And there are more unethical practices that are rampant in the company which made me quit and you dare say I am unethical?

Ethics aside... I am moving on to a 'David' company... you are 'Goliath'. This 'David' company offered me a good package... and for me they had to bend backward slightly. So, it already says that 'Goliath's' package isn't very good right? I stayed 11 years... and I assure you it was not for the money. Anyway, my offer to this person is still lower than what most other places offer for the same position yet it is attractive enough for the person to seriously consider it. So, what does that really say about 'Goliath's' package? And how many employees has 'Goliath' already lost due to this? But No... they will not admit it. It's ok.

It's like a woman who does not dress up or put on any make up while everyone else does and then wonders why she does not get laid while the rest do. So, why don't you just dress up and put some make up so you can get fucked instead of just whining and not doing anything!

There is a moral sense and there is an immoral sense. History shows that the moral sense enables us to see morality and how to avoid it, and that the immoral sense enables us to perceive immorality and how to enjoy it.

A man should not be without morals; it is better to have bad morals than none at all.

Moving On...

The die has been cast... the game is in play. There's no turning back now.

I tendered my resignation today. After exactly 11 years in service. My boss didn't take it well at all... he even threw his bag (with his tablet inside) onto the sofa in tantrum. I felt extremely sad that I had to do this to him. I'd like to stay and help him but I can't. He asked me to stay on and help him personally as a friend and in return he would find me a job later on in the international arena. The offer is good but I couldn't accept it.

Here's why... I am one of my boss' favourite's... I know it. Some say I am THE favourite but that, only he will know. In the past 11 years, no matter what my achievement and regardless of whether it was my effort or not it just gets brushed off as... "Oh, that's only because he's CK's boy... and he gets more support then he should and CK would 'cover' for him"...bla...bla...bla... never, ever am I recognised for my own merits. So if I accept that offer, essentially he would be pulling strings for me and I would end up being 'his boy' again.

I think it is time for me to try something else on my own. And if I fail, then I failed.

I am sure by tomorrow the news would have spread and there will be many, many happy people.

Messed Up...

The past few days have been pretty messy. There was frustration. There was hurt... lots of it... I wished I could just take my heart out but alas I can't. There was anger. Some people just love to report half facts and get others worked up... really spoilt my days.

Anyway, thankfully I had planned to spoil myself last night and that kinda made up for everything for the time being. I bought myself tickets for Avatar-3D on Monday for last night, midnight. My last 3D movie was Jaws 3D... and I think I was about thirteen then. I decided on 3D for Avatar as I read somewhere that this would be a good movie to watch on 3D. To cut a long story short... I was happy as shit. Damn! It was so cool! Really cool... nowhere near what I remembered it to be. I was literally fascinated... switching views to see the difference... trying to touch certain things... and here comes the best part.... there was a scene with an explosion and  the debris flew towards the audience... I actually ducked! It was a good experience. Go try it... you won't regret.

This is a view that I should be seeing daily soon. I've always dreamed of having a beach-side house but I guess a beach-side workplace will have to suffice for now... really looking forward to it... get away from this place... away from everyone. Maybe I'll find peace there... maybe I'll just decide to sever all ties and start life all over again... maybe that's the best way since people can't move on... they just have to haunt you.

If the weather is good I'll go out for some photography tomorrow...

Been Busy...

First and foremost, sorry to those who actually check back on my blog for updates. There are a few of you to my surprise. Google Analytics say so. Whoever you are, sorry and thank you.

I'm back and hopefully I will try and manage my time better. I have been very busy and I'll try to summarize everything that's happened in the past weeks in this post.

Last month, during the holidays I took leave and went on a short holiday too and I also went to see my potential new work place and here's a picture of it. Please click on the picture to get the full panoramic version.

It looks very much in line with the artist's impression. I'm sure things will look much, much better after the landscaping is completed. The rooms are so-so... hard to comment when it isn't fully furnished.

On the way back from my holiday I got caught in my worst traffic jam ever in my entire life. I left Kangar at 5:00pm on Sunday evening. The journey from Kuala Lumpur took just over 5 hours. The journey back took 13 FUCKING hours! Excuse the language but I was really, really pissed. Something I'll never forget and hopefully never ever get caught in again.

I got myself Tekken 6 and on the first day played it till my thumb was numb... and flat too. I couldn't feel my thumb the next day. They did a damn good job with the graphics. The movements are good... to the point when the female characters fell or moved, their boobs moved in sync with everything.... cool!

Hmmm... what else... Wada seems to have stopped blogging. I guess having a partner now has been keeping her busy.

Oh, yes... the ex has tied the knot. I sent them flowers to congratulate them. Bought them online. The exchange is a killer... cost me almost RM400. Oh, well... it's a one-time affair so what the heck.

I have been very, very busy with my Flickr page. I deleted a shit load of pictures and added a lot of potraits. I have been revisiting a lot of my photos and been re-editing them to get better results. I'm going to be more active there now and I need to do a lot of housekeeping there with the sets and tags. So, do drop by there and pen down some comments to help me improve with my hobby.

I've had a lot of trouble focusing on my current job as my heart seems to be in Langkawi already. You know... being a KL boy I thought I would suffer in Kuantan... which I did for a very short while but then when I got used to it I started to dislike KL and now after being in Langkawi again I think I really hate KL now... I really am looking forward to the move.

Last week I attended the Joint Council... a meeting where we senior management meet with the owner and his representatives (board of directors). The owner shared his views on the company's expansion plans and how it intended to place all of us under REIT and how he intended to expand after that. In return he needed us to commit our performance to to meet the REIT rentals. He went on and on telling us how he was so excited with it... sure... I'd be excited too if I had in excess of RM400 million to play with. And then he asked all of us if we were excited.... well... ALL OF US tried to look excited but here is the truth. How can any of us be excited? He asks us to commit our performance in blood so to speak... but  he does not commit anything to us. Come on... if we commit and don't meet the goal there was threat of asking us to look for a new job... but if we do meet the goal, what's in it for us? If you want us to be as excited as you are, then hang a fucking carrot in front of us! Even a baby carrot is better than nothing!

Anyway...  I haven't changed my mind... Langkawi, here I come...

Another Sleepless Night

I thought that I'd sleep like a baby since I didn't sleep a wink at all on Sunday night but I was wrong. My mind was active again. I think I got about 2 hours of sleep. I am still very, very excited about my upcoming new job. I just finished and sent my assignment over.

Another view of Phase 1.

Sleepless Night

I had a sleepless night last night and I am so, so sleepy today. This excited botak's mind was on overdrive last night. I was thinking of the candidates for my core team, finance, policies, benefits, salary structure, etc. I am really, really excited about this. Need to find the time to do my assignment today. Here's an artist impression of what I'm all excited about.

This is Phase 1.

My Interview

I met my friend Pam today.... the one who is going to be my new boss. It was an interview cum chit-chat session. We have not met in quite awhile. She looked pretty much the same. She was a hot hoochymama 15 years ago... really hot. Now... hmmm... not so hot lah.... but bolehlah. Hahaha...

Anyway we met in Bangsar Village 2's Coffee Bean. She wanted to know if I was serious in accepting her offer. She proceeded to tell me more of the project. It sounded very good. I am interested... very interested.

1. The 40% and the increment when phase 2 opens still stands.

2. Accommodation thrown in. My beloved mom gets to come visit for free. This is a benefit she insisted on. I guess she wanted to emphasise on this coz she just lost her mom last year.

3. She's buying a Murano and I can drive that Murano when she is not there as she is based in KL. Wow! Finally, a company car... sort of....

4. After this resort there will be two other resorts and if I do my job well here then I will head the project for the next two with profit sharing options. That sealed the deal actually.

5. I report to her and no one else and during the conversation we established that she and I both have the same goals. That's important.

6. I am fully in-charge. I am to treat it like my own business. I get to pick my all my managers. She only needs to interview the Financial Controller and choose the Financial Controller. Ok... I have no problems with that.

Finally... a chance to build something of my own... mould it the way I see it should be moulded into and not DICKtated by some idiots... and if things go well I might be there for at least 5 years as all the projects are in Langkawi. And if that's the case then... I may finally get to buy my dream car... duty free... hence affordable to a poor man like me.

I am so inspired now. Pam asked me if I wanted an appointment letter now. I laughed at her and said... What the fuck for? Even with the letter, you can still sack me on the spot and I can also NOT turn up for work right? She laughed and agreed... she said that most people would want to have something in writing to 'feel' more secure. I trust her I said... I'll need the letter much later. Not now.

And I already got my first assignment. Proposed manning for Phase 1 and Phase 2.

Damn... the last time I was so excited was when I lost my virginity! By the look of it... I think I should be at my new job by my next birthday.

The Appointment

My potential employer wants to see me. Looks like after over 10 years of complacency, I am taking that bold move after all. The appointment is set for 12:30 pm tomorrow.

Ok... That's It!!!

I get a call this morning from my boss... more questions... this, that, this, that...

Didn't you think of this? Didn't you think of that? 

NO! I didn't! 

I told you to do this... why didn't you do it? 

Because I can't spend money. Everytime I spend you all question me. 

Operating costs and upgrading costs are different.

Yes, I know... but that's not what happens every month! You all start questioning me on why I never met the targeted profits. What do you really want? If there's anything that I am really good at is upgrading but I can't upgrade like this!

I know it's hard...

Yes, it's hard... so hard that I want to quit!!

Silence...

May I make a suggestion?

Sure, go ahead...

Quit when everything's okay. It will be good for you.

Oh, don't worry about that. I've made arrangements.

What do you mean by you have made arrangements?

I'll turn this place around before I leave. I'm already halfway there. I'll see it through.

Silence... he tones down and diverts the conversation.

No attempt to retain me. No questions... nothing. I guess my instincts were right that there is something going on at the top level and I am caught in between.

I called my friend Pam. Pam interviewed me a few months back via Yahoo! Messenger. Yes, Yahoo! Messenger. Cute huh? She's opening a resort in Langkawi and in that interview she asked me mostly questions on what I would need to open that resort. I aced the interview and she was impressed despite me being rude and also scolding her for asking questions which were vague and me asking more questions actually. Hahahahaha... this can only happen when the interviewer is your friend and you're not desperate for a job. The offer was made then but I said I'd think about it... 40% more than current salary to run a 44 unit resort. That's just Phase 1. Phase 2 will see 125 more units and will be complete 1 year after Phase 1 is up and running and I would get an adjustment in salary then. Now, this is a very good deal... but I tarik harga lah then... of course. First of all, it was still to early at that point, secondly I was not desperate then and thirdly, must tarik harga lah...

Anyway, she told me the job is mine she was just going to call me too to check if I had made my mind up. No formal interview needed. Just needed to meet up next week for a chit chat. She's even letting me stay on to see if I can get bonus here before I tender my letter. So... I secured a job verbally... starting in the 1st quarter of next year if I take the job.

Now... need to update my resume and look for other options.